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My Recordings

Posted By: Jonathan Finger on June 23, 2005 @ 11:19 am
Filed under: dialysis

Well I finally put up some music I recorded in the music section of the site.  I have learned that in the future, if I want to put recordings up I should, but should not really invite others to listen.  I was certain that my "these performances aren’t very good" rant would deter any futher criticism.  Nope…  some still felt the need to share with me what could’ve been better.
First off, I’m not frustrated that I was criticized because it is unwarranted.  I’m frustrated because as a performer I already have an incredible lack of confidence.   While there’s plenty for me to work on, I was hoping the "feedback" I asked for would be more like "Dude… YOU ROCK". 
Oh well, "so ist das leben".

On a serious note though, thanks to those of you who took a listen and had something kind to say (which in reality is everyone who responded).

The next batch will be a bit more polished, now that I know who’s listening.


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The Dark Knight Returns

Posted By: Jonathan Finger on June 21, 2005 @ 5:12 pm
Filed under: dialysis

We saw Batman Begins this weekend, and all I can say is "wow". 
If you know me, you know I’m not one to get excited about Hollywood’s latest offering of crap, especially when it comes to cheap comic book knockoffs.  Come on, we grew up reading these comics, and while we got used to new artists and changing story lines, we don’t like complete disregard for the tradition that is a superhero.
For example, does anyone remember the Hulk remake that came out a couple of years ago?  There were some positives to the movie, but foundationally it was flawed, and doomed to disregard by all who were fans of the comic book.
Spiderman was changed for the movie, but in a positive way, and has proven to be one of the better comic book movies ever (if not the best).

Now every Batman fan will tell you that the first movie was the best.  It was the darkest, and closest to what most of us considered to be the duality of Bruce Wayne, and Batman.  It’s important to note that Bruce is the alter ego of Batman, not the other way around (credit: Kentcouncil coffee-room forums).
Batman Begins gives us Christian Bale at his finest.  We see Batman’s creation, and the desire for justice that made his existence possible.  This movie is dark, visually stimulating, and exciting.  A soundtrack by Hans Zimmer doesn’t hurt either.  I’m sorry I’m so vague, but this is one I don’t want to spoil for any Batman fans who haven’t seen it.
Growing up I dreamed of being both Spiderman and Batman.  Up until now the movies had me thinking Spiderman was the better hero.
Batman has reclaimed his place though…  he is truly one of the best.


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National Donor Sites - matchingdonors.com

Posted By: Jonathan Finger on June 16, 2005 @ 1:07 pm
Filed under: dialysis

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I’m sure some of you have seen the stories on the news: someone in need of an organ uses a web site on the Internet to find a perfect match, and the two live happily ever after.
As a former transplant recipient, and someone who’s currently on the UNOS list, it’s hard to watch these stories without feeling a bit cheated.
What’s the problem, they’re not breaking the rules are they?   Are they?
First one needs to understand the transplantation process, and everything involved with finding a living related donor, or waiting for a cadaveric transplant.  My first transplant was a living-related transplant, and while I’m certainly no doctor, I’d like to think I understand a little something about the process and how it works.  Having lost this organ, I also understand the emotional stress that’s involved when such a gift expires.
Good Deeds
First off, the fact that there are people willing to donate their organs is great.  I need to make perfectly clear that this is a huge deal for both parties.  That there are those out there willing to donate not only to a family member or friend, but to anyone who needs it is huge.
That being said, it is extremely important that people are giving such a gift for the right reasons.  In my (not so humble) opinion, an organization like matchingdonors.com is NOT capable of undertaking the huge responsibility of appropriately matching donors with recipients. 
As a 28 year old who has been on dialysis for the last 3 years, I know how it is to wait for a kidney.  As someone who has had a transplant I also know what struggles await on the other side.  I am certainly not the only one who has experienced this, but I do have some unique insight on the matter.  There is an enormous emotional and psychological attachment that takes place with such a procedure.  This is well known, and there is typically a fair amount of psychological evaluation and testing that goes on for both parties prior to transplantation.  It’s important to know that the person giving expects nothing in return, and it’s equally important to know that the person receiving is capable of accepting such a gift without strings attached.  That’s all fine at the onset, but what happens when the person loses the kidney five years later because of their lifestyle choices?  It’s important for that gift to be free and clear.
None of this is new information.  But in my opinion a single, private website such as matchingdonors is incapable of guaranteeing this level of screening.  Of course the individual hospitals will have to make the final decision, and many are deciding not to accept transplant matchups from this website.
 This is where the business end of things kicks in, and the issue can really become complex.  A highly rated transplant hospital (like University Hospital in Denver) really wants patients to choose them.  They also need a high success rate, to maintain their status.  There’s HUGE money in this business coming in from private insurance companies, and Medicare/Medicaid.  But if a hospital is to remain true to its mission, it has to be concerned about the welfare of my patients in the short term, as well as the long term.   This can get very confusing if several websites come online offering the service of matching donors with recipients.  Privately run, there is no way to guarantee the sanctity of this gift, and to make sure there indeed aren’t strings attached.
So what’s the answer?

In my opinion matchingdonors is onto the right idea.  I applaud them in what they’re trying to do, I just don’t think they’re the right ones to be doing it right now.
The UNOS list already manages the information of all those waiting for kidneys.  UNOS should then also monitor those willing to donate them.  This should be in conjunction with a board of directors from say, the 10 best transplant teams in the nation (or some other collection of diverse authorities).  This would help to insure one centralized place for the matching to take place, would insure the quality of the match, and would possibly reduce some of the testing, or repeat testing involved for both the donor and the recipient.
Furthermore, there should be some sort of incentive for a human to make such a donation to another.  But it shouldn’t be in the form of cash.  This is one of the obvious problems, or at least concerns with privately run websites offering this service.  A person can already go to South America and purchase an organ transplant …  we don’t want people selling their organs here.
What about a tax incentive?  What about some sort of societal contribution - tax break for people who donate organs?
Again, if this is centrally run I see this being regulated much easier.

The Big Picture
I’m writing all of this off the top of my head, so I apologize if any of it is false, makes no sense, or is otherwise in error.  It is important that people choosing to donate do so freely, and with little motivation or pressure to do so from outside.
John’s Hopkins is currently matching donors to recipients, and from what I understand is having good luck with it.  If this were done on the national level (and with participation from all the transplant hospitals) the list of ~80,000 people would disappear.  Imagine the wait going from 5 years to a couple of months!
Certainly there are areas of the medical industry who stand to profit from such an operation.  Transplant teams, pharmaceutical companies (post transplant drugs are ridiculously expensive). 
But who will lose out?  What about the dialysis companies?  This is another huge business that would potentially lose a considerable share of their patients, and medicare-based income.
Would tax payers rather have their money pay for a patient’s transplant and drugs, or dialysis for the next 5 years?
www.usrds.org has tons of data on this and other ESRD related discussions.  According to their data, there are roughly 160,000 dialysis patients in the U.S. being paid for by Medicare.  This is costing roughly $7,000,000,000 (Just Medicare’s ESRD expenditures, does not include private insurance).  This is about $43,000 per year, per patient (and this is a reduced rate… medicare does not pay the "full" price for dialysis).  Keep in mind, we’re only looking at the stats as they pertain to patients eligible for transplant (based on age only).
This is a huge cost, and with only a few companies sharing the majority of dialysis clinic ownership, there’s a lot of money to be made.
The patients are the ones who need to speak out.  It is their money that is funding this (and the money of other tax payers).  If we have to pay, do we want to pay for people to be connected to machines, or out living life?  We know that there are plenty of people willing to donate.  If a safe, secure way can be found to administer such a service, and connect people, wouldn’t this be the obvious solution?  Wouldn’t the tax payers rather see the people benefiting from their dollars returning to the workforce and living healthy lives, rather than wasting away in their dialysis chair?  No, not everyone on dialysis is miserable, but a considerable amount are. Considering that dialysis and/or ESRD qualifies you for Supplemental Security Income (SSI), there is actually incentive for some patients to take advantage of the system.
Centralize control of a national donor list, and make the service available for everyone.  Find some sort of fair, passive financial incentive (tax break or something similar), and allow the hospitals to apply the same standards to these match-ups that they already are.
In my opinion this will be a much better use of the tax-payer’s money, and will create a higher quality of life for all involved.
Again, my apologies for any of this that is false, or nonsensical.  Any data contained herein was found online, and may or may not be accurate.  If someone has contrary information, I would invite them to contact me and educate me so that I can form a more accurate picture.
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Cyclists of Colorado

Posted By: Jonathan Finger on @ 10:25 am
Filed under: dialysis

I am one of you…  I enjoy cycling on the road, I enjoy attacking the occasional single track…  I love getting out and going on a bike ride.
But you people are getting ridiculous. 
YOU ARE NOT LANCE ARMSTRONG.  Let me repeat:
YOU ARE NOT LANCE ARMSTRONG.

Cycling used to be a fun sport, not gear justification.  Can you really not get in a decent workout without shaving your legs and donning spandex?
For those not in this area, cycling is very popular.  At any given moment while driving around you will see what appears to be teams of professional riders out for some training.  Some of them (many) are.  But most are not.  It’s not uncommon to take the ride up Left Hand Canyon to Ward, and have a member or two of the US Postal team pass you.  That part of it is very cool.  What bothers me is the attitude of many cyclists in the area.  I don’t know if it is this way everywhere, but many seem to have lost their sense of reality.
Cyclists have long demanded to share the road with automobiles.  Fine.
The trade was, if you want to ride on the road, you need to follow the same rules.  If you have one lane (the shoulder) you must ride single file.  You are SHARING the road, not dominating it.  You must use the same signals (indicate which direction you are planning on taking), and must obey all of the same traffic laws.
That doesn’t seem to be the case though.
Just this morning I watched a cyclist blow through a stop sign, while riding in the middle of the lane designated for automobiles. 
what?
Riding in the lane instead of the shoulder isn’t enough.  Now you’re going to just blow off stop signs as well? 
My favorite is when two or three cyclists are together, and have such pressing topics of conversation that they have to ride abreast rather than in a line.  The automobiles then are forced to drive halfway into the wrong lane (over the double yellow line).  If you in your car pass to close to these asphalt-hogs they will flip you off and scream at the top of their lungs.  How dare you drive on this road that your gas-tax dollars are maintaining!
As if it’s my duty to risk my life and someone Else’s by driving up a hill on the wrong side of the road, so they can have a conversation together and not have to shout. 
And as a cyclist I can tell you what cyclists talk about in these important moments.  They talk about gear.  Which caffeine gel they like, their favorite Cliff bar flavor.  They compliment each other on how cute they look in their spandex.

Now I must be clear… there are plenty of cyclists who are not obnoxious, and who share the road very well.  I’m only moaning about the select few who really get under my skin.


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The People Speak

Posted By: Jonathan Finger on June 15, 2005 @ 1:00 pm
Filed under: dialysis

So the latest polls are in, and it seems that the majority of the public wants us to either pull out of Iraq immediately, or at least begin pulling out.
Cool… I’ve now said something political and my blog will be famous.  I am part of the revolution.

Now that that’s out of the way…

I recorded some music this weekend.  Check back under the "music" area of this site, as I will be posting some of it there.  Not that it’s really worthy of being published on the web, but that’s sort of the purpose of this site… to make myself look more awesome(r) to the world.
I recorded a few Bach Preludes from the Well Tempered Clavier (or Wohl Temperierte Klavier), and a couple of "original" on-the-spot compositions.
It was nice to finally record some music, and to get the "rush" of performance, without the unmitigated anxiety.
I think I’ll be trying to do this more in the future, and thanks to a recommendation from one of the forumites, I may have found an adequate solution to inexpensive home recording.

In another breaking story, did I mention that I got a speeding ticket last week?  The "I’m late for life-saving dialysis treatment" didn’t work this time, though it seems to work very well for the RN’s and Techs when they get pulled over.
Perhaps I should start a paypal account for radar detector donations.


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